Wow! I can’t believe this trip has come to an end and I am back in the United States. While I am physically back, my mind and heart are still overseas. I definitely need these next few days to debrief and process all that I have experienced. I am ecstatic to see friends and family, yet a little nervous to get back into the swing of things.
Our time in Nicaragua was great in some ways, but also really hard for me personally. When we first arrived to Nicaragua part of me was distracted on the idea of going home soon. I knew that I would be able to hug my parents in just a few days, and I was so excited. I struggled with wanting to be fully engaged in Nicaragua while being exhausted and homesick. At the same time, there were many days that I was not feeling very well.
In Nicaragua we were helping teach at Nicaragua Christian Academy. Teaching is not my forte, and many times I felt useless. However, with my three years of Spanish in high-school I was able to communicate with some of the students. This minor back and forth communication brought me a certain type of joy that was lacking in the other countries where I couldn’t speak the same language as the natives. During my time here, I was encouraged by what we did there even though I didn’t feel like I made a difference. I was also encouraged to continue short term missions, if God calls me to it.
Throughout this entire summer, I have struggled a bit with the short-term aspect of it. Right as I was feeling comfortable and truly forming relationships, we would pack up and leave to another country. It was sometimes frustrating. But with God’s grace and unfailing love, I was reassured of the work we were taking part in. Our team had the amazing opportunity to have an impact on 5 countries this summer, and because of God, we were able to. I have definitely been challenged in multiple ways this summer, and I pray that with God by my side I will be able to make changes that need to be made.
Going into this trip, one of my wishes was that I would have to fully rely on God. I can honestly say that there were times that I did. While they were hard, I am so thankful for them. God is bigger than any struggle I have had or will ever have. As I return to normal life, I desperately pray that I never forget how badly I need God. In addition, I pray that I will continually seek him for all my needs instead of any earthly things. In the end, earth will crumble, but the Kingdom of God will last forever.
Thanks again for all the support and prayers! I can’t wait to see y’all in person and share some of my stories. Even though we are back in the states, there are still a few more prayer requests:
-transition back to life in America
-that debrief time is relaxing and God-reflecting
-continued health and rest
Thanks again and God Bless!